...the rest is up to your imagination.
~yuu
Oh, no sketch this time people. Just me and my ramblings.
These past few weeks, my brain's been doing a lot of mental activity. I think it's pretty buff by now . _ . ;;;
Ah, eww...bad imagery.
Anyway, I've noticed I haven't been eating at the dinner table a whole lot lately. I don't even get home on time before everyone heads off to bed with a few plastic-wrapped meals lying on the table, gone cold long before I arrived home.
But the other night I managed to and my parents had a real long talk to me. It started off nonchalant and before I knew what hit me...
...they asked me about my life plans.
And I sat there thinking "oh shit.........I really don't know..."
I'm only 19, spare meeeee ;w;
The feeling I got was like a giant anvil fell down my throat and landed in the pit of my stomach. No joke. I think it's what you call "dread".
Hands up how many people have been in this situation, because I can bet my ass everyone has at least once. I really do envy the people who have their lives sorted out. Just how do they do that?
So I've been thinking about and discussing this with my boyfriend. I know I shouldn't, it gets him worried, but I can't as well go and change the topic when he brought it up first right? I don't want to drag innocent bystanders into my battlefield of reality vs. mushness.
Then they made me think about some goals. I'm telling you people, when someone says "to make it in life, you need goals" they're so right. It isn't as straightforward and simple as how it's worded. There's so much consideration needed. SO MUCH!
It made me wonder too, how HARD IT IS TO LIVE A SIMPLE CAREFREE LIFE.
I don't care about living the wealthy life. My ideal lifestyle is just to live in a one-bedroom apartment with my boyfriend (whom I should have wed by then), working one to two jobs for the sake of household needs and groceries so that we can make kickass dinner meals together and watch some cheesy crime-fiction evening programs or rented movies with the occasional outings to movie theaters and dinner at the sushi train restaurant. One the side, I'd like to support my parents and help them retire with ease coming home every sundays for a family dinner.
I'm even working three jobs (four if art commissions count) while balancing out and keeping up with my groups in our assignments. Trust me, this isn't enough yet, but I'll get there. I need to develop a stronger mindset that says "this task needs to be done TODAY". Procrastination is a bitch and I can't rely on my constant fluking anymore.
As depressing as the prospects sound, I'm still going to do what I can for the next four years, while I wait till my boyfriend finishes his course. Doods, I'm going to rack up one heck of a lifesavings and make my ideal lifestyle a reality. (Please don't tell me I'm still behaving like a naive child and it's all a fairytale. That'd be so mean of you ;w;)
Anyway, enough of my essay writing full of grammatical errors and hair-wrenching, EVIL paragraph distribution. *kowtow* I'm sorryyyy
Well, have a nice day people and I hope you've all got your futures figured out.
~Yuu
P.S anyone who had the audacity to read through all of that - I commend you.
